I don’t know what I’ve been feeling lately. I feel almost restless. Like I just have to move around, go out for a walk or something. I don’t feel right at home. Nothing I do seems to entertain me, like all I want to do is go out. I don’t know if this is a result of thinking about you all the time, of wanting to see you. It’s not like if I go out, I’m going to see you so I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. It’s disorienting, I’m so used to wanting to be home on a normal basis that this just feels almost weird. I don’t know what to do about my feelings for you because I don’t want a physical relationship and yet sometimes I just seem to want it from you. I wish this could work out for us… although it’s probably not something you want.